july 22, 2022 at 8:10pm

maybe I’m too dumb

too soft

to come to anger

maybe I’m too wishy-washy, too indecisive to hold passion for myself

maybe I feel like myself isn’t a big enough thing to be passionate about, so whatever flame burns melts away in short time

is my things that bad? and I really that bad?

trying to bargain with myself about myself about what happens to myself to measure if it’s really worth getting worked up about it

(anger can flow more freely for others, for those close in proximity to me but for myself it waivers.)